Things pissing me off today. March 19, 2008.

I am tired of people trying to create problems for me.
My mom keeps bringing up the fact that Parker doesn't know Jay isn't his biological father. "Oh well I talked to my boss about it because she was adopted" she says to me. Well that's all real good and dandy for your boss but I also grew up with two fathers and look where it got me. One overdosed and one doesn't talk to me and both families don't include me because I either wasn't from the same blood or I never really was around anyways. I am sorry that you think his father was so nice to me but he wasn't. He lied to me everyday, cheated on me constantly, and tried to force me to have sex with him because I was suppose to love him. His mother was molested by her father and still lets her father around her children, so whose to say my son wouldn't have been left alone with this monster if he was still a part of their family? Her husband is verbally and emotionally abusive very, very severely abusive. So I am the bad guy for not telling my 8 year old about this family and how they didn't want him and threatened to take me to court to have an abortion? I didn't force Parker's father from Parker's life. I made it excruciatingly easy for his father to be in his life. He choose to stop seeing him when he was 3 years old because his girlfriend at the time didn't want kids. Parker has known Jay his entire life and has never had to question Jay being his father. They act the same and look the same and enjoy the same things. No one has ever questioned if Jay was his biological father because they are so alike! We use to tell Parker not to call Jay Dad but at 3 years old he decided that is what Jay's name was. He was smart enough at 3 to know what a father was suppose to be. Really my mom doesn't have any experience in this sort of thing because she was raised in a large loving family where her mother and father were together. She never had to call someone else Dad and will never find out that her father wasn't actually her father. Really biology doesn't make you a father, it makes you a parent. Being a parent doesn't give you the right to be called Dad.